You are Not and Never have been a Victim

Taking Ownership of your Life and Situation 

Many reading this may not like the way this will sound, but I believe this is wholly true... PLEASE take the time to really think about what I am saying, IF you're hearing this for the first time. YOU, with some guidance, chose the life you are living. You chose your mother and father, brothers/sisters/children, situations, birth location, gender, and especially YOUR LIFE LESSONS. You and your guides determine what lessons will work out the best for everyones growth and plan out details that will allow you to learn these lessons. You, and your soul group also work together in the planing stages before you are born. You are not a victim of circumstances. In reality NOTHING has happened TO YOU. 

Can you feel that in your heart? Deep in your soul does that sound correct or does it not feel right? When I read some ideas I work to feel inside if the concept is plausible or feels right to me. I try not to form an opinion too soon...I like to sit with new ideas and ponder them to determine if they feel right to me. Or sometimes if they just feel wrong. The idea that we select the situation that will allow the most growth feels very right to me. It makes no sense that it would all just be random happenstance.

Before you came here, you made some plans on what lessons you wanted to learn so you could grow the most spirituality in this lifetime. You know yourself VERY well, you know what it takes for you to learn something at a soul level. So if your lessons are beyond difficult - that is what YOU KNEW YOU NEEDED to learn what you were sent here to learn. 

Trust me, when I first began understanding this perspective - I did not like it, I didn't like it one bit! It means that I knew my daughter, Katrina, would go while she was young, and that we PLANNED it that way. When I sit and meditate, I KNOW THIS IS TRUE. Although very very painful, I am certain I knew this information. 

There are a few things I have always known. I have no idea why I know these things, but so far they have come true. I knew I would have a son, then a daughter. I told myself, in the mirror for years, do not get addicted to anything. Do not get fat! (wish that would change faster than it is!!) My 50th year would be very life changing. I am an optimist, and thought I would meet my husband that year! And finally, that I would die in a car crash or when I was 98. Those five 'facts' I have known ever since I could remember. 

Katrina Rose in a southern garden

I now consider these 'facts', and yes, I had a son, then a daughter. My daughter, Katrina, was taken in an auto accident when I was 49 - but if conception begins life, I would have been 50. Perhaps the memory of the car accident, I related to me - when in fact my soul tried to remember to soften the losing of my daughter. I don't know. But I find it interesting...



What have you always just KNOWN about your life? 

Believing that these big lessons are planed - I begin to day dream and see if I can mediate down to this information. Gather more details of things I may know that will benefit me now. It calms me somehow, yet pains me as well. I miss Katrina so much, her laughter, her grumpy morning manner, her butt showing because her pants are pulled down too low! I just miss being in her presence, doing anything. It is so painful to lose someone you love, more than you love yourself. The pain is indescribable. I imagine it is like losing a limb, or the ability to walk or see/hear. 

So getting in my head that I (we) chose this lesson for OUR growth is difficult to accept. Difficult yet I know it is also accurate. I recall what Archangel Metatron said to me the night he gave me my life lesson (in another post). Basically he stated that 'nothing bad ever happens to you without your prior approval, up to and including your death'.

When I heard that message, I understood it at a soul level. 

I look around my life, my situation, and my relationships with a different perspective these days. I not only accept them, I work to embrace them - knowing this is the way it should be. It is all perfect. 

So we are NOT victims here, yes some of us got a pretty shitty card - life is not what card you got - it is what did you DO with the card YOU GOT?

What Happens After you Die?

What happens to US (or other living beings for that matter) After we die?

Is there life after this?

What is Heaven like? Is there a Hell? So many questions; yet few are asking (out loud). Are you afraid to die? Have you given it any thought? It is the ONE thing we are ALL going to do...yet we rarely discuss it. I don't think I thought much about it myself, before I lost my daughter, Katrina. Once someone you love dearly passes - I guess its normal to pursue the topic, "What happens after we die?" I read every book that interested me on the subject. Even watched a few movies, 'What Dreams may come' Robin Williams, 'Terms of Endearment', 'Steel Magnolias', 'Descendants', 'Lion King', 'City of Angels' but I still had no firm idea what happens after we die. I know, your thinking, "no one knows what happens"...yet I have to believe there is more to be said on the topic....

What does the bible say about life after death? 

John 11:25
Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, thought he were dead, yet shall live. 

John 3:16
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

So the bible tells us WE HAVE life after this Life;if you are blessed with FAITH. What if you don't have faith? Would something different really happen to you, just because you don't know Jesus? So all those with the Jewish faith who believe Jesus is a critically important person, just not the son of God - don't get this gift? What about those who are never introduced to the concept of God? Does it make sense that The One/God- rejects them? How would YOUR GOD separate people? (God separate? hummm)

So does that mean we all go to Heaven? Is there a hell? I personally do not believe in Hell. I never have believed in such a place. When would a parent (God) ever look at one of his children and finally GIVE UP? To me, it makes more sense that there are layers of heaven. We go to the 'layer' that relate to how our energy vibrates at the time of our death {that is another blog for the future!}. Can we possibly learn all the lessons in life in ONE life time? Can we learn how to LOVE the world, as God does in just one trip to Earth? 

So does that bring us to reincarnation? 

What do you think about those who can communicate with the dead? More and more mediums are being seen on TV, writing books and movies - making that more mainstream. The current TV hit, The Long Island Medium, Theresa Caputo has opened many hearts to the idea that our loved ones don't just disappear. They are here with us, just in a different way. She clearly has a gift that offers HOPE. We all can use some hope!

There are countless stories about those who die and come back -life after death - in NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCES (NDE). Many near death stories are told by respected people, who fear telling their stories will make them seem less credible.  The current NY best seller book, "Proof of Heaven" is written by a Harvard trained neurosurgeon, Dr. Eben Alexander. Basically his story is that 'he being highly trained and skilled brain surgeon, thought that people who told stories about floating above their body, traveling down a tunnel that's brightly lit, etc was just a normal body response from a brain lacking oxygen.' It must have been strange for him when in 2008 he "died" and traveled (flew) over what he described as Heaven - with fields of amazingly beautiful flowers opening as he and 'an angel' held hands while they flew over the most colorful and beautiful landscape he could imagine. Later through a police drawing, he finds out that the angel was his sister (he was adopted) whom had died years earlier!

Undoubtedly, we all want SOMETHING wonderful to happen after we die. Don't we all desire to be surrounded by our loved ones who have gone before us - WAITING for us? This is a tough life sometimes, wouldn't it be great to KNOW we go on to something more amazing? 

Do you believe we can communicate with our loved ones after they pass from here? 

In the spring 2012, my best friend and I took a trip to Phoenix, Arizona to take a two 1/2 day workshop with James Van Praagh. The workshop was to help teach you how to communicate with the other side. It was important for me to be open to all these new ideas because of Katrina. I was not willing to just wait 50 years to talk to her again! If it was possible to talk to her now, I wanted to learn how to do it. 

The week before Katrina's car accident I was repainting my living-room "French Gray". I had no idea that meant a light shade of blue! I wondered how it would look next to my red couch? I had sent photos to Kat's cell but she said she couldn't tell via text, but would be up the next weekend to visit. For reasons I still don't clearly understand - she never made to my home again. 

Once we booked our trip to the James Van Praagh workshop, I began to ask Katrina to PROVE to me that she was indeed there and could hear me. I wanted her to have SOMEONE at the workshop mention that I was painting my walls. It was obscure, and wasn't 'Google-able'!

I asked Katrina daily to bring up the painting sometime during our trip, if not I would have a hard time believing in such things - even as much as I wanted to believe, I needed first hand experience (proof). Friday night James did a few hours worth of readings for the audience. He was very good, and had a lot of detail in his descriptions. Many audience members were crying. It was pretty intense, but Katrina didn't make it in that night. Saturday and Sunday we did several exercises to strengthen our 'listening' and 'feeling' skills. By Sunday, I was bummed, she hadn't come through and I was getting nervous. Lyrae kept telling me to relax, it will happen - just chill. (Ugh!)

We were near the end of the workshop and once again we got new partners to pair up with. As soon as I sat down the lady says, "you should go pick someone else, I am not good at this' I think, oh great! Here I am NEEDING to hear my daughter, and I get a lady that has low confidence! I felt I needed to stay with her, and asked her to concentrate. I handed her Katrina's orange wallet and asked her to focus. In the beginning, she said she was hearing 'grandmother', I said NO. Calmly, "please take a deep breath and concentrate". 

She took a deep breath, she looked off to the side and said, "I am getting your daughter", "YES", she said, "she was killed in a car accident, but it was not her car", "YES", she said, "it happened around mid-night", "YES" and she went on with 6-7 accurate statements and then said that is all. I kept looking at her, in the dark, with a room full of hundreds of others in sets of two. She was still looking off to the side, thinking of something. I asked her what she was thinking, and she said, "No, its silly and doesn't mean anything". I said, "if you feel compelled to say it, you should as it might mean something to me". She looked right at me, and smiled, shrugged and said - "I see you with a roller paint brush - painting your walls"...tears streamed down my cheeks...

Angel Numbers

Have you ever heard of the term 'Angel numbers'?

Do you ever see the same numbers over and over again? 
Do you read the Bible? 
Angels are written about in the bible more than 250 times.

Katrina and I
Dallas Starplex Concert Bar 2010

Katrina Graceland 2010

A few years ago, perhaps six months after my 22 year old daughter, Katrina, was killed in a texting auto accident, I began seeing sets of numbers over and over again. 

I was obviously distraught and lost. I felt like the shell of a person, wandering around my house - unable to leave - unwilling to accept my fate. Anyone who has lost a child, or lost someone they love beyond words may begin to understand the tortured trapped feeling of just wanting OUT. I wanted out of my life, my head, my body, my family - I wanted to back up and have "my normal life back!" No matter what I did I could get no relief from my own mind. 

I walked past the clock in the kitchen, and the oven time was 12:34. Minutes later, I was in the bathroom and that clock said 12:34. For several days I would be doing something and then look up and see that it was 12:34. I am sure it took several days for me to even notice that time on the clock. I remember the day clearly when I finally stopped in the kitchen and said to myself, "What does that mean? Why do I keep noticing the time when it is 12:34?"

I had never really payed much attention to seeing a number over and over. I remember one day, years before, my mom asking the time, and me saying it was 11:11, and she said, "that's a good number". I asked her, what did that mean? What do you mean 11:11 is a good number? She just shrugged and say times with "1"s are good. At the time, I didn't think much of it and went on. 

Finally, after I had noticed the time 12:34 coming to me 5-6 times in a day - I googled it. Isn't that what we do in this day and age? Ask Google? 

Google came back with lots of answers, but I read the article , that Doreen Virtue, a well known lady who "worked with angels" had written about Angel Numbers. Basically, she said that our angels are trying to communicate with us on a regular basis - and we are typically too busy to notice - but they can 'send a message' by having look up at a clock at the same time each day so we observe a number repeatedly. We can see these numbers on all kinds of things: licenses plates, change from a purchase, the cost of an item, a page number - it really is endless. 

Guardian Angel

Daniel 9:21-22

...while I was still in prayer, Gabriel, the man I had seen in the earlier vision, came to me in swift flight about the time of the evening sacrifice. He instructed me and said to me, "Daniel, I have now come to give you insight and understanding." (NIV)




I quickly looked up the number '12:34' and it said that things are going in order. 'Things are happening in my life in the sequence that they were planned. And that I needed to continue to move forward in my life.'

For some reason that answer seemed logical to me at the time. So I began paying attention to seeing numbers repeatedly. Any time I would notice a number three or more times I began researching the meaning. I liked knowing that angels were working to communicate with me. A little piece of my soul felt not so terribly alone. 

Right around the same time I had begun noticing several other signs that I was not alone on this journey. I needed to KNOW that I was NOT ALONE, as I was really distraught to a point it scared me. I am known to be a strong person, people used to always say that to me. But this was different, I wasn't strong - didn't want to be strong. I wanted my damn daughter back! I felt so punished by God. I didn't understand why. What had I/we done to deserve this?

I digress...this opened the door to me receiving message via numbers from my guardian angels. I felt better knowing I was not alone during this dark time in my life. I had guardian angels with me - communicating to me! Being raised Catholic - we are taught we all have guardian angels - but this was pretty cool. 

I will come back and share a few more stories regarding ANGEL NUMBERS but for now I will leave you with a sample description of what the angel number 222 means. I've seen this number 5-6 times in the past few days. 

Do you see a certain number each day? So much that you NOTICED IT? What number do you see repeatedly? I like the website Sacred Scribes Angel Numbers.  I believe Joanne provides the best level of detail in regards to a number you may notice over and over. 

Be open. We all have guardian angels... Is YOUR angel trying to communicate with you? What message are they working to get to you?

May you come to this with an OPEN HEART - trust me THEY DO!

With love, 
Kathy (with my angels - Angela & Ariel)
You may also enjoy the website; Google; What does the Bible say about Angels?

[See Below From the website  www.sacredscribesangelnumbers.blogspot.com

ANGEL NUMBER 222

Number 222 is made up of the attributes of and energies of the number 2 tripled, making number 222 a very powerful vibration. This number carries the attributes of the numbers 2 and 22, the Master Builder Number that resonates with ancient wisdom, vision, idealism and transformation. Number 2 lends its influences of faith and trust, encouragement, attainment and success, adaptability, diplomacy and co-operation, duality, service and duty, balance and harmony, selflessness, faith and trust and your Divine life purpose and soul mission. Number 222 has to do with balance, manifesting miracles and new auspicious and timely opportunities.

When Angel Number 222 repeats in your life you are asked to take a balanced, harmonious and peaceful stance in all areas of your life.  The message is to keep the faith and stand strong in your personal truths.

The message of repeating Angel Number 222 is that everything will turn out for the best in the long-term.  Do not put your energies into negativity – be aware that all is being working out by spirit for the highest good of all involved.  Angel Number 222 is also reminding you to keep up the good work you are doing, as the evidence of your manifestations are coming to fruition.

Angel Number 222 is a message of faith and trust from your angels.  Know that all is being worked out for the highest good of all involved.  Remember that nothing happens by chance and everything happens for a reason.  Maintain a positive attitude and you will find that everything will have positive results and you will receive abundant blessings in Divine right timing.

{http://sacredscribesangelnumbers.blogspot.com/2011/07/angel-number-222.html}

The Law of Attraction

Lotus Flower - Grown in dirt
Rises above the murk to achieve enlightenment 

The Law of Attraction - what you focus on - you get more of...,like attracts like, what you resist - will persist, etc...

Like many laws, the Law of Attraction seems very simple.

We, like everything else on our planet, are pure energy - and like a magnet we attract into our lives what we set our sites on. The rich focus on how much money and things they have...so they get MORE. The poor, or less fortunate, struggle with bills, think about how much money they DON'T have...and thus get more!

Although this law is simple in concept, like many other ideas we encounter - it MAY SEEM SIMPLE but in reality it is not easy to reshape the way we think. We are programmed very early in life, and so if our parents struggled - we tend to do the same. That is not always the case, but it seems to happen more often than not. 

We parents have to break this cycle and re-think the way we interact we our children. We need to teach them things our parents may not have taught us. When I was a kid, we had a large family and a small house. I shared my room with three of my sisters, the boys shared one room, my mom and stepfather had the baby with them. At the time, I didn't think we were broke, but my family struggled to keep food on the table. We ate more casseroles, and pot pies...'filler food' as I call it now...but I was happy (most of the time!). However, my mother never owned her own home - and we tended to move a lot. I wanted to buy one house and stay there forever!

How do we change the way we think to get the things we want? How can we attract the good jobs? Good income? Healthy relationships?

 

Sample Vision Board

Proverbs 17:22

A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones. 





The book, The Secret, was the beginning of change for many people. But, in my opinion, it really didn't teach me HOW to get these things. They seemed to just say FOCUS on what you want and magically it would APPEAR. To help you focus on the goal, we were taught to make vision boards (posters with pictures, and/or words filled with our deepest desires) and look at it each night and day. 

Conceptually, creating a personal vision board is a good place to start. I say this because many people are not PERFECTLY clear about what they want - not refined in identifying WHAT they want to manifest in their lives. Most know that they are not happy where they are but haven't quite figured out what they really want. I liken that to getting into your car and wanting to get to a destination and NOT having any idea where it is or any road map to get there. {no wonder we NEVER arrive there!}

The Law of Attraction requires we really FEEL in our souls our desires AS IF WE HAVE THEM NOW. We have to show gratitude and feel it deeply. We need to see/feel ourselves where we want to be - IN FULL LIVING COLOR! If you want a home, go look at them and find the one you want and really envision you and your family there. See yourself walking up to the home, opening the door, with your own key, see the decorations - room by room, etc...Get into as much detail as you can with your desires...see yourself in that car, know the color, how it smells, how it feels to drive it - so go test drive one - get to know deep into your soul these desires - this will help you attract the things you want. If you desire a healthy relationship - first be the PERSON you know your future mate would want (honest, loving, trusting, respectful, etc)...

We need to know we deserve what we want. We are beautiful, we are WORTHY, and trust me the "world" wants to give you what you desire. 

We are pure energy, as is everything around you. The Law of Attraction - is a real law, just as the law of gravity. There is no real magic here - other than to change the way we think!

One more thing to consider is timing. We don't always get what we want WHEN we want it, but if we keep our eye on the ball - we will indeed succeed.

NOTE: On a personal note, I have been working to find the ideal job for me. I've done the corporate job - for 22 years, don't want to go there again! I've been working several part time jobs - which gives me freedom - but not the income or benefits I desire. I have looked for jobs and feel in my stomach - "I couldn't do that, or Wouldn't want to do that"...I know those are not where I should be. The other day I was speaking to my closest friend about this, and she reminded me that I would get what I wanted when I needed it ("as you always do"). And I reminded her about the law of attraction in regards to her finances...as I hung up I wondered WHY I wasn't attracting the ideal job - I had to remind myself of the law of attraction - I wasn't clear about what I wanted...no wondered it hadn't come to me yet!

I have always wanted to be a teacher. I want to work with at-risk kids/teens. I see myself on a working ranch with many animals so I can work with the kids teaching them to care for those who can not care for themselves. I plan to use art as a form of therapy. I have been attracting into my life several people who want to help in this endeavor. This summer I plan to take a three week program to allow me to teach...things are moving in the right direction, I am VERY BLESSED ... I just need patients and faith...and not forget about TIMING! (the law of attraction is working just fine!)

God Bless you and your family...